By very nature I am a rule follower and people pleaser.
I grew up in a fellowship with a list of rules and regulations... some spoken but many unspoken.... can't dance...don't drink... must be affluent and white. And as much as I wanted to follow the rules I always felt like a failure because I could not meet the standards of others.
It wasn't until my high school years that I realized that it wasn't about a list of rules but about a relationship.
It wasn't something I could do on my own but what had already been done.
It wasn't about me striving for perfection in my own strength but totally relying on His strength.