Monday, March 29, 2010

"What life would be like"

Driving home from Bible Study tonight, the WOW 2010 CD was in my CD player and it was as if God's hand had queued this particular song for exactly this 5 minute car ride. (It again just reminds me how every situation we find ourselves in is intricately woven together by the master's hand.)

A friend and I just finished Beth Moore's Bible Study "JESUS: 90 days with the One and Only". What should have taken at most 30 weeks (3 lessons per week) has taken us a little over a year but I don't think we could of hand picked a more opportune time to complete this study with what is happening in both of our lives.

Anyway after a sweet time of fellowship and prayer, I got in my jeep and headed the 2.5 miles home. This was the song playing...

"What life would be like" by Big Daddy Weave

I wish I was more of a man
Have you ever felt that way
And if I had to tell you the truth
I'm afraid I'd have to say
That after all I've done and failed to do
I feel like less that I was meant to be
And what if I could fix myself
Maybe then I could get free
I could try to be somebody else
Whose much better off than me
But I need to remember this
That it's when I'm at my weakest
I can clearly see

He made the lame walk
And the dumb talk
He opened blinded eyes to see
That the sun rises on His time
Yet He knows our deepest desperate need
And the world waits
While His heart aches
To realize the dream
I wonder what life would be like
If we let Jesus live through you and me

What if you could see yourself
Through another pair of eyes
What if you could hear the truth
Instead of old familiar lies
And what if you could feel inside
The power of the hand that made the universe
You'd realize

All our hearts they burn within us
All our lives we've longed for more
So let us lay our lives before the one
Who gave His life for us.

I have heard this song numerous times but tonight as I again listen to the lyrics my heart just broke from the conviction of the Holy Spirit.

Lately there have been so many "closed doors" that I wonder if anything is ever going to open. Wondering if I should try to start opening some of those doors on my own knowing good and well that if God has closed them that they are not meant to be opened at this point. Knowing that stepping over the threshold of any of these closed doors would be disobeying God and lead to consequences.

After all that has been going on in my heart over the past couple of weeks and all that God has been teaching me through His Word, I can truly say that I am at one of my weakest points... humbled at the foot of the cross. I have no where else to look but up into the face of my Savior!

If He can cause the lame to walk... the dumb to talk... the blind to see... the sun to rise and set... how much more does He care for our deepest desperate need... Jesus' heart aches on our behalf when we struggle! He has truly been in our shoes and overcame all that life could put on him (including all the sins of the world). Perfect reminder as this is Passion Week!

What would life truly be like if I let Jesus live through me...

instead of trying to do things on my own...

instead of listening to the lies of the enemy...

instead of being persuaded by the world...

Oh God... hear my broken and contrite heart... I desire to serve you. Life is meaningless without you. You died for me, the least I can do is live for you. Create in me a heart that desires to put the worldly ideas aside and focus on your truth and vision.