No Matter What

The past three weeks have been filled with one trial after another.  Thankfully I have realized that it is a spiritual attack and the only way to fight those battles is on your knees.  After Tink's passing, a song on the Wow 2011 really had new meaning to me and it has become my theme song for this year.  The song is "No matter what" by Kerrie Roberts and the lyrics are...

I’m running back to Your promises one more time
Lord that’s all I can hold on to
I gotta say this has taken me by surprise, but nothing surprises You
Before a heartache can ever touch my life
It has to go through Your hands
And even though I keep asking why, I keep asking why


No matter what, I’m gonna love You
No matter what I’m gonna need You
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain
But if not, if not, I’ll trust You no matter what, no matter what


When I’m stuck in this nothingness by myself
I’m just sitting in silence
There’s no way I can make it without Your help, I won’t even try it
I know You have Your reasons for everything so I will keep believing
Whatever I might be feeling, God You are my hope
And You will be my strength

Anything I don’t have You can give it to me, but it’s OK if You don’t
I’m not here for those things
The touch of Your love is enough on its own
No matter what I still love You and I’m gonna need You


No matter what I’m gonna love You, no matter what I’m gonna need You
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain
But if not, if not, I’ll trust You
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain
But if not, but if not, I’ll trust You
No matter what
No matter no matter what
No matter no matter what
No matter no matter what


The lyrics that really stuck out to me is the lines that said... "I gotta say this has taken me by surprise, but nothing surprises You, Before a heartache can ever touch my life It has to go through Your hands."  Knowing that I serve a sovereign God that allows nothing to happen that is out of His control has brought great comfort.  God allows things to happen to grow us to image Him more.  He doesn't cause things to happen but he does allow certain things that we deem as less than fun. 

After being sick for the past three week, I can truly say that my strength and joy has been from God and God alone.   It started with a head cold that turned into a sinus infections that led to tonsillitus and then an eye infection.  My body is worn down and my immune system is shot.  Looking back I truly see how the hand of God has carried me through the past few weeks when I didn't want to get out of bed.  The joy of the Lord has truly been my strength. 

I am not sure what 2011 is going to hold but I do know that No matter what I am gonna love him ... no matter what I'm gonna need Him!